Book review: History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera

History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera
Rating: ★★☆☆☆
Links: Amazon • TBD • Goodreads
Publication Date: January 17, 2017
Source: Purchased

When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course. 

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart. 

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

Alright, here we go. I pretty much spent the entire month of December struggling to make my way through this book. It’s not necessarily that it’s a bad book, but it wasn’t for me. Let me tell you all the reasons why.

First and most importantly, I don’t like sad books, so I’m not sure why I even picked this up. I mean, I bought it in June when I was really highly anticipating What If It’s Us, so I guess that’s why. But had I just read the synopsis, I would have been able to see that I wouldn’t like this book. So I guess that’s on me.

Second, rather than slogging through this book for three weeks, I should have just DNFed this book at the end of week one and called it a day. I knew from the first few pages that I wasn’t getting along with the writing style. It’s not that it’s badly written, but there was a lot about it that annoyed me. 

There were some sentences that I just… kind of stared at and wondered why they existed:

  • “I’m sorry. That was a dickhead thing to say. I need a condom for my mouth.” [how would that even work?]
  • “Rosie may be half a decade older than my mom, but she’s been consistently going to the gym, and I think I can even feel some abs coming in as we hug.” [excuse me, what kind of weird hug are you giving your aunt that you can feel her abs??]

It also bothered me that sometimes we’d get emotions coming through really clearly just based on dialogue and then it would also be explained in the narration. I don’t know how to explain this without spoilers. It just came across that Silvera either wanted to make the book longer or thought his readers were dumb.

Another thing I don’t know how to tackle without spoilers is all of the relationships Griffin has in this book. Yes, the big relationship is with Theo, but there are also two other relationships, one of which makes sense and one of which I just felt was wholly unnecessary and completely ruined the book for me. I saw it coming from about eighteen miles away, but it still made me angry. I wish the new WordPress editor would let me do the thing where I hide spoilers, but it doesn’t, so I just have to be vague.

And, like… I get that teenagers are dramatic. I was once a very dramatic teenager myself. But the characters in this book are so dramatic. And I feel like they aren’t realistic high school students, either. A three-way spooning session between opposite gender friends? Platonic sleepovers in which they’re just in their underwear? Literally kissing and having sex with everyone you talk to? Maybe I was just a sheltered child, but yikes.

Again, I don’t think that History Is All You Left Me is necessarily a bad book. But it absolutely wasn’t for me, and I would definitely hesitate to recommend it.

#killingthetbr: six months on shelf

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Tag: 3 Days, 3 Quotes (Take 4) | Day 3

I was tagged by Raya for another round of 3 Days, 3 Quotes! I always love sharing my favorite quotes, so I’m really excited to do this tag again!

If you’re interested, you can see the previous quotes I’ve shared here:

Take 1: Day 1 | Day 2 | Day 3
Take 2: Day 1 | Day 2 | Day 3
Take 3: Day 1 | Day 2 | Day 3
Take 4: Day 1 | Day 2

I believe in love at first sight. Fate, the universe, all of it. But not how you’re thinking. I don’t mean it in the our souls were split and you’re my other half forever and ever sort of way. I just think you’re meant to meet some people. I think the universe nudges them into your path.

What If It’s Us by Becky Albertalli & Adam Silvera

Since this is my fourth time doing this tag, I’m not going to nominate anyone, but if you’d like to share some quotes, please consider yourself tagged and link back to me so I can see your choices! ❤

Book review: What If It’s Us by Becky Albertalli & Adam Silvera

What If It’s Us by Becky Albertalli & Adam Silvera
Rating: ★★★★★
Links: AmazonTBD • Goodreads
Publication Date: October 9, 2018
Source: Purchased

Arthur is only in New York for the summer, but if Broadway has taught him anything, it’s that the universe can deliver a showstopping romance when you least expect it.

Ben thinks the universe needs to mind its business. If the universe had his back, he wouldn’t be on his way to the post office carrying a box of his ex-boyfriend’s things.

But when Arthur and Ben meet-cute at the post office, what exactly does the universe have in store for them?

Maybe nothing. After all, they get separated.

Maybe everything. After all, they get reunited.

But what if they can’t quite nail a first date . . . or a second first date . . . or a third?

What if Arthur tries too hard to make it work . . . and Ben doesn’t try hard enough?

What if life really isn’t like a Broadway play?

But what if it is?

It means it’s seven thirty on a Saturday night, and I’m four stops away from the first act of my love story.

In case you hadn’t noticed, I have been screaming about this book for the last… year, maybe? As soon as it was announced, I knew I would love it. I was even more convinced when I read the synopsis and saw the cover. It showed up at my house and I immediately locked myself in my bedroom and started reading. I wish I could’ve just read straight through, but ugh, work. 🙄

I don’t even know where to start because I just loved this book so much.

  • I loved Arthur. I want him to be my best friend and go to musicals with me.
  • I loved Ben. I want him to be my other best friend and go to Lorde concerts with me.
  • I loved Arthur and Ben together. They were so cute. SO CUTE. I am almost crying right now thinking about how much I love them.

There were so many things that happened in this book that I related to.

  • “Who is he? Name. Address. Social security number. Twitter and Instagram handles.” ACTUALLY ME WHEN MY FRIEND MEETS SOMEONE, OKAY? ACTUALLY ME. (Also my friends when I’m hanging out with someone new.)
  • “Just write a post that describes the moment, like, Hey, we met at the post office and made out inside a mailbox, so on and so forth.” ALSO ACTUALLY ME WITH THE EXAGGERATIONS, I CAN’T HANDLE IT.
  • He flings his arms around me before I can say hello, and now he’s just standing here hugging me like a cobra. THE MOST ME SENTENCE I HAVE EVER READ IN MY LIFE, THIS IS ME IN ONE LINE

Honestly, I have 29 quotes flagged in this book and I could keep going, but I’m going to stop now. Well, almost. Can I also say that I really want to read Ben’s book? I need it in my life. Can Becky and Adam publish that next, please??

Anyway, in summary:
Five stars 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟
Five hearts ❤❤❤❤❤
Five sobbing emojis 😭😭😭😭😭

I loved this book so much.

#mm18: new or old

Have you read What If It’s Us?
What am I supposed to do with my life now that I’ve finally read it?
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