Book review: History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera

History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera
Rating: ★★☆☆☆
Links: Amazon • TBD • Goodreads
Publication Date: January 17, 2017
Source: Purchased

When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course. 

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart. 

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.

Alright, here we go. I pretty much spent the entire month of December struggling to make my way through this book. It’s not necessarily that it’s a bad book, but it wasn’t for me. Let me tell you all the reasons why.

First and most importantly, I don’t like sad books, so I’m not sure why I even picked this up. I mean, I bought it in June when I was really highly anticipating What If It’s Us, so I guess that’s why. But had I just read the synopsis, I would have been able to see that I wouldn’t like this book. So I guess that’s on me.

Second, rather than slogging through this book for three weeks, I should have just DNFed this book at the end of week one and called it a day. I knew from the first few pages that I wasn’t getting along with the writing style. It’s not that it’s badly written, but there was a lot about it that annoyed me. 

There were some sentences that I just… kind of stared at and wondered why they existed:

  • “I’m sorry. That was a dickhead thing to say. I need a condom for my mouth.” [how would that even work?]
  • “Rosie may be half a decade older than my mom, but she’s been consistently going to the gym, and I think I can even feel some abs coming in as we hug.” [excuse me, what kind of weird hug are you giving your aunt that you can feel her abs??]

It also bothered me that sometimes we’d get emotions coming through really clearly just based on dialogue and then it would also be explained in the narration. I don’t know how to explain this without spoilers. It just came across that Silvera either wanted to make the book longer or thought his readers were dumb.

Another thing I don’t know how to tackle without spoilers is all of the relationships Griffin has in this book. Yes, the big relationship is with Theo, but there are also two other relationships, one of which makes sense and one of which I just felt was wholly unnecessary and completely ruined the book for me. I saw it coming from about eighteen miles away, but it still made me angry. I wish the new WordPress editor would let me do the thing where I hide spoilers, but it doesn’t, so I just have to be vague.

And, like… I get that teenagers are dramatic. I was once a very dramatic teenager myself. But the characters in this book are so dramatic. And I feel like they aren’t realistic high school students, either. A three-way spooning session between opposite gender friends? Platonic sleepovers in which they’re just in their underwear? Literally kissing and having sex with everyone you talk to? Maybe I was just a sheltered child, but yikes.

Again, I don’t think that History Is All You Left Me is necessarily a bad book. But it absolutely wasn’t for me, and I would definitely hesitate to recommend it.

#killingthetbr: six months on shelf

Have you read History Is All You Left Me? Do you like to read books about grief and/or mental illness? Let’s talk in the comments!

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Ultimate 2019 TBR

Between reading challenges, new releases, and ARCs, I’ve got a huge stack of books that I want to read this year. We’re already 20 days into 2019, but I figured that I would compile a list of the books I definitely want to get to this year so I can hold myself accountable!




I’ll be checking in once in June and again at the end of the year. Hopefully I’ll make some good progress on my TBR! Have you read any of these books? Which should I read first? Let’s talk in the comments!

Weekly Update

In case you missed it, here are this week’s blog posts:

Tags this week:

I’ve been reading:

Recently acquired:

1 thing this week:

  • I went a little overboard on the book buying, but in my defense, I only ended up spending like maybe $20? That makes it okay, right?

Blog hopping:

  • Ilsa shared so many tips on requesting ARCs!
  • I loved The Orangutan Librarian’s list of happy books!

Song of the week:

I’m going way back to one of my high school obsessions, Something Corporate’s Ready… Break. This is one of my favorite songs from that album.

Book review: Play by Piper Lawson

Play by Piper Lawson

Rating: ★★★☆☆
Links: Amazon • Goodreads
Publication Date: September 14, 2016
Source: Freebie

I’m Payton Blake. Just another twenty-something girl, living the dream.

That’s what I tell myself every morning. That I’m successful, self-aware, and well-balanced.

It’s just a tiny fib. I would be all of those things, if I had friends who didn’t work with me at the bank. And if I made it to pilates more than once a quarter. And if watermelon slushies weren’t the main source of nutrients in my diet. It wouldn’t hurt if I’d had sex in the last year, either. (My best friend insists Jorge the Nightstand Boyfriend doesn’t count.)

But when you know where you’re going, you don’t need to enjoy the ride. Right?

Even if some teeny part of me did want to fool around, Max Donovan would be the last guy I’d call. Sure, he made the indie video game that broke the internet. And yeah, his eyebrow piercing’s sexy, in a ‘what-are-you-in-a-band?’ kind of way. And fighting with him gets me going faster than Jorge on bezerker mode…He’s still colder than a cactus and twice as prickly. And I’m not talking about his face, because the guy’s barely old enough to shave.

It’d really be best if we just ignored each other. Which is a problem, because Max Donovan is my new biggest client.

So what happens when the girl who lives to work meets the guy who was born to play?

Game on.

I was a big fan of Piper Lawson’s NSFW when I read it last year, so when I saw that Play was free on Amazon, I jumped at the chance to one-click it. Nine months later, I’ve finally gotten around to reading it. (Why am I like this?) I’m not sure what the problem was with Play, but I just didn’t enjoy it as much.

And that’s not to say it’s a bad book! I liked Payton and Max. It’s pretty clear to me that Piper Lawson has a knack for writing sassy heroines and heroes that initially come off as jerks but actually have hearts of gold. I laughed out loud more than once while I was reading (mostly at the beginning) and definitely swooned a time or two.

But I think that something was missing. Maybe it was that everything worked out a little too easily? Romantically and professionally, there was conflict, but it kind of just conveniently faded away. I also thought that the romantic relationship between Payton and Max kind of came out of nowhere, with them bickering and keeping things professional and then hooking up with very little transition. I also felt like the story dragged a little bit after that initial hookup, and even though this book is barely over 300 pages, it probably could have been a bit shorter.

All in all, this was a fun, sexy romance and while I didn’t love it, I’ll definitely be on the lookout for more from this author.

Previously: NSFW

#killingthetbr: nine months on shelf

#ps19: a book revolving around a puzzle or game

#romanceopoly: library

Have you read Play? Do you have a favorite new adult book?

Let’s talk in the comments!

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ABC Book Challenge ✰ M

I’ve seen this ABC Book Challenge on a lot of different blogs, but most recently Thrice Read. This week is the letter M and I never realized how many books I want to read start with that letter!



Have you read anything that’s on my TBR? Which books should I read first? Do you agree or disagree with my favorites? Let’s talk in the comments!

Book review: The Cruel Prince by Holly Black

The Cruel Prince by Holly Black

Rating: ★★★★☆
Links: Amazon • TBD • Goodreads
Publication Date: January 2, 2018
Source: Purchased

Of course I want to be like them. They’re beautiful as blades forged in some divine fire. They will live forever.

And Cardan is even more beautiful than the rest. I hate him more than all the others. I hate him so much that sometimes when I look at him, I can hardly breathe.

Jude was seven when her parents were murdered and she and her two sisters were stolen away to live in the treacherous High Court of Faerie. Ten years later, Jude wants nothing more than to belong there, despite her mortality. But many of the fey despise humans. Especially Prince Cardan, the youngest and wickedest son of the High King.

To win a place at the Court, she must defy him–and face the consequences.

As Jude becomes more deeply embroiled in palace intrigues and deceptions, she discovers her own capacity for trickery and bloodshed. But as betrayal threatens to drown the Courts of Faerie in violence, Jude will need to risk her life in a dangerous alliance to save her sisters, and Faerie itself.

I avoided reading The Cruel Prince for the longest time because of the hype, but I finally did it. The main reason that I finally picked this book up was Daniel‘s idea to do a giveaway of The Wicked King, and how could I do a giveaway of book two in a series without reading book one? Anyway. I read it. And it took me a little while to figure out how to rate and review it because I almost felt like I read two different books.

Let me tell you, I struggled through the first half of this book. The pacing felt off and I felt like we’d be teased with a few really exciting pages only to be bored half to death for the next couple chapters. I also didn’t enjoy the constant bullying of humans by the fae. (Not that you’re really supposed to enjoy it, I guess, but it was a lot to handle and it made me really uncomfortable.) And can we talk about Jude for a second? Because Jude is the worst, at least at the beginning of the book. I’ll elaborate.

So, in general, I have no problem with unlikable characters. I don’t need to be best friends with every character I meet. I don’t need them to make all the right decisions or be happy and cute and nice all the time. Characters can and should be angry, conflicted, and rebellious. But Jude? She’s just dumb. She doesn’t understand basic things. She makes the strangest decisions. She contradicts herself constantly.

“Oh yes, this boy is staring at me all the time and I found out that he likes to obsessively write my name over and over again. I guess he must hate me! Yes, that must be it.” — Jude, probably.

I was so annoyed. SO ANNOYED. But then something happened. Once I hit the halfway point of the book, I was so into it. I could hardly put it down! I had to know what happened next. Honestly, five stars for the second half of the book. Maybe two stars for the first half. I can’t say I was all too shocked about the ending, but maybe I’ve just seen too many people talking about this book. I won’t hold that against it.

I wasn’t going to read The Wicked King right away, but now I think I need to buy it immediately.

Have you read The Cruel Prince? Are you excited for The Wicked King? Let’s talk in the comments!

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Top Ten Tuesday: New-to-me authors of 2018

Happy Top Ten Tuesday! Today’s theme is new-to-me authors of 2018 and I have to say, I think it’s going to be a little difficult to narrow this down to ten.

Shaun David Hutchinson

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Alice Clayton


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Jenn Bennett

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Sarah J. Maas

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Emma Hart

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Jay Kristoff

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Tara Sivec

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Maggie Stiefvater

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Brian K. Vaughan

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Erin Hahn


my review will be posted closer to publication!

Did you do your own Top Ten Tuesday post today? Feel free to leave your link in the comments and I’ll check it out! Have you read any of these books? Who’s the best author that you read for the first time in 2018? Let’s talk in the comments!